Today.

Nothing takes the past away like the future.--

Something that has been ringing in my head all day today.

I know it may not make sense whatsoever, or sound oddly weird, when it comes to how I break things down and view it; I know it may be different, but I find beauty in different; And God's reminders are the most beautiful thing to me...

There are days when I can't seem to shake away life's distractions or struggles; and that is when it's almost like a layer of fog surrounds my hope.

Hope is everything to me. Hope is what changed me. Hope gave me a purpose. Hope is my strength. Hope is the reason I smile today.

My hope, is my Jesus.

The fog keeps me from seeing the rainbow that I have been promised.

Fog is something I have to learn to admit. It's all too easy to hide it behind a smile.

And ya know... it is okay to show weakness. It's healthy. It's normal.

Don't hide a layer of fog behind a smile...because before you know it, it will be multiple layers.

When we hide behind a smile, we convince ourselves that we are okay-- And on those days that we just can't shake it, the rainbow we convinced ourselves that we once saw, seems like it was all a lie. Then we doubt hope. And we dream of the past.

There was a point today that I caught myself dreaming. I thought I was going to be sick because my heart was breaking all over from the re-runs and absent butterflies.

All I could get out was, "God, get me off this roller coaster. I thought it was over...please."

Then I smiled.

Needless to say, God woke me up from that dream right then and simply reminded me of all the other many times I have been faced with this so-called "fog."

Smiling is inevitable when I think about those times.

I couldn't believe I had let myself wonder how long I was going to be pulled down by this struggle, even the slightest bit.

God is so faithful.

And for that I am thankful.

The rainbow ALWAYS shows up where there is hope.

Sprint into the unknown--because after we choose to and we take off with the first step, hope shines through-- and it never fails.

I am not saying it is going to be easy.

But--I'm saying it's going to be worth it.

Hope is the dream of a soul awake.