The Fear of My Past, part II

So. When the fears of my past tell me I can't, and I am standing in fear just like I picture Joshua was doing, I remember.

God's promise and provision. 

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

There are 3 significant things I have learned through doing so:

1. How to fall in love with Jesus.

By studying God's Word. I want to tell any girl I talk with to choose a Bible study and be all in it. Do the outside work, gather with other girls, and dig deep for answers. Ask God for a hunger and desire for His Word; a request God will never refuse. Whatever Bible study it may be, if it has the guidance of God's word—do it!

Matthew 13:11-12, I love how it talks about those who have been given Kingdom secrets, He gives more. That verse tells us, the more we seek after Jesus, the more He will reveal himself to us.

He will become a more triumphant and pure addiction.

2. Pray for what I lack.

More than lots, I pray for a desire and drive to be in His Word. There is nothing God wants more than for us to know Him.

3. Wrestle with the feeling of hopelessness.

Cry, scream, and break down about it. Let it out. But through your tears, let God's Word fill inside you.

Psalm 126:5-6 tells us our tears can bring us joy. We must trust our beliefs and not our feelings. That is why it is so important to know God's Word- So we can keep going, even when the world tells us it's hopeless.

We can give ourselves to something greater than painlessness—purpose. If we trust and persevere, we will eventually see the good through it; in us and others around us, while God receives the glory. Otherwise, God would have forbidden the downfall.

I don't have a testimony of a Proverbs 31 woman, and I won't be able to share a story of a pure bride. But I can tell people I love the Lord more than I will ever love a man, or anything else in this world. Not only does He satisfy my every need, but He also gives me purpose. He gives me the chance to serve Him by loving Him, while constantly telling me I am enough.

There are so many answers I don't have and so many things I don't understand. However, I can surely tell you this—If you place your hope in God, He will always....ALWAYS..place you where you can look back on your pain with victory and a thankful heart. You will stand stronger than ever and laugh in the face of your enemy.--You will thrive again.

Do not transfer an old fear to a new day.